Good morning, Beautiful!
Thanks for being here, for showing up week to week and for sharing in my story…which is really God’s story that is being told through my life. Your responses, your texts, your encouragement and exhortation mean a lot to me, and I am so very thankful for YOU! Whether you’re one that I hold dear, one who I’ve had the pleasure of sharing in a coffee date with or maybe you’re the one who found these words through a connection on this crazy thing we call the internet…either way, know that I am praying for you as you read these words and I pray that this story that I’m living out encourages you to tell your story too, because it’s where your deep gladness and the world’s deep hunger meet that God will do extraordinary things.
If you’re new around here, I’ve been talking a lot about reflection and my focus for this year being to honor the hiddenness.… those deep spaces within me that might seem ordinary to some, but those places where extraordinary work is being done- the roots of this story itself.
And when they asked in my small group, what are you most excited for in the year ahead?
growth in stability, I said.
Some answered with practical changes, new jobs, new places, new people, new spaces, some with spiritual goals and personal ambitions, and there sat my answer which seemed to lack so much luster and might compared to the goals and ambitions surroundings. Growth in Stability.
And yet, there in that space I realized the gift of being able to honor growth in seasons of stability. My career, my finances, my academic goals, this life I’m living, stable and secure~ a resting space. But I can’t help but feel the urge in this season, to be intentional about learning the beauty of growth, the below the surface growth that can happen in such a season of stability. Where my goals may not be lofty, my outward experiences and happiness not Instagram worthy, my practical changes not so apparent to the onlooker…. but this place of stability where I feel God doing an inward work like none other. One that moves me to tears. One that heightens my senses to the beauty that surrounds. One that is shaping the core of my being. One that will forever change me more into the likeness of Jesus.
And in this expression, my friend encouraged me with…don’t get discouraged when it feels like your life from the outside isn’t exciting to share, because the inward work that God is doing is going to be great and lasting and YOU will know it’s happening even when others don’t. Rest there, my friend because it’s preparation for what is to come….
And so, I say the same to you, my friend…. if you feel like your learnings, your growth, your life overall feels a bit quiet compared to the lofty goals and ambitions of those around you, know that there is a peculiar glory that is being inspired within you if you choose to find that growth in stability….
Read this in a staff post last week and thought…this is it. So very thankful for this role that I get to play, L&D brings the best of the best and the worst of the worst and I’m here for every minute of it…
I am just the nurse who was there during the birth of your child.
I am just the nurse who held your hand, looked you in the eye, and made you feel like the strongest woman in the world.
I am just the nurse who recognized that you had severe preeclampsia and got an order from your physician for magnesium sulfate to prevent you from seizing.
I am just the nurse who carefully monitored your breathing WITH MY STETHOSCOPE because I know the possible complications.
I am just the nurse who vigilantly monitored your baby’s heartbeat and recognized that he was in distress.
I am also just the nurse who had you on the OR table by the time your doctor was in the parking lot to deliver a healthy baby.
I am the nurse who took photos of your baby because you were all alone… Even though I should really be charting and doing about a hundred other things.
I am just the nurse whose family has to experience another day without me because I stayed 3 hours late to see you through a difficult delivery.
I am just the nurse who maintained your dignity and made you feel comfortable when you were at your most vulnerable.
I am just the nurse who convinced your OB to give you more time before performing a cesarean section.
I am also just the nurse who waited as long as possible to call your OB for delivery so that he wouldn’t cut an episiotomy.
I am just the nurse who held your hand and cried with you when you came through triage… and your baby had no heartbeat.
I am just the nurse who hasn’t had ANYTHING to eat or drink since my cup of coffee I drank this morning when I woke up… at 5am.
I am just the nurse who will let you leave grip marks on her arm while you are getting your epidural, while repeating to you, “You are doing an amazing job. Almost there. You can do it.”
I am just the nurse who reassured a teenage mom that she can be an amazing parent and still get an education.
I am also just the nurse who stood by you while you handed your baby to his adoptive mother. I held you steady. I watched you tremble. My heart ached for you.
I am just the nurse who knows that preventing the primary cesarean helps prevent future cesareans and all of the associated risks for each future pregnancy and, therefore, will do everything in my experienced power to encourage your baby to position herself correctly in your pelvis.
I am just the nurse who held your hand and told you, “She is beautiful. I am so so sorry for your loss.” My heart ached for you. I wanted to hold my children and never let them go that night… but they were already sleeping because I stayed late to be with you.
I am also just the nurse who cried the entire drive home and who’s husband doesn’t even have to ask how my day was.
I felt your joy.
I felt your pain.
I wiped your tears.
I calmed your fears.
I kept your secrets.
I taught you how strong you are.
I saved your life.
I saved your child’s life.
My body aches.
My heart aches.
And I love every minute.
I am JUST a Labor and Delivery nurse.”
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Love on your people & keep in perspective your beautiful legacy in light of eternity.…
Love and Blessings,